As part of my coven’s Samhain ritual, we did a divination. One card each, pulled from my beloved Voyager Tarot, to represent our paths or focus for the coming year. I pulled the Priestess card and am now reflecting on what this means for me and my life.
A priestess is defined by Merriam-Webster as “a woman authorized to perform the sacred rites of a religion” or “a woman regarded as a leader (as of a movement).” Wikipedia gives these key terms as interpretations attached to the High Priestess card of the tarot: knowingness, love, relationships, wisdom, sound judgment, serenity, common sense, intuition, mystical vision, introspection, otherworldliness.
I’ve definitely been feeling the need to embrace those last characteristics. As a Fish, mysticism is not out of the realm of my own experience. A knowingness, intuition, and vision have always been a part of my inner and outer worlds, sometimes in unexpected, sometimes in unwanted ways. Unexpected… past life dreams of myself as a priestess of Isis in Pompeii, desperately trying to save our holy instruments and relics before the Fall. Unwanted… a prophetic dream, years beforehand, of an earth-shattering, near-fatal assault on my person, from which I still struggle to recover.
The serenity and introspection have seemed to slip away little by little lately, as I find myself living more fully in and as a part of the world, embracing its very material joys and pleasures and experiencing physical sorrows and frustrations. A lot of things are being stripped away from me now, not necessarily of my own volition, and I’m being forced to deal with things I’d rather deny and escape from. In this process, I can feel a certain shimmering, a glimmer of the beauty and simplicity that could be my life, will be my life, once I find courage, discipline, and momentum to finish the game.
I think of the number 7, its numerological meanings, and the between worlds presence of the High Priestess— and I want that. Perhaps I will lead more rites, create them, channel Godly energy, perform more divinatory spells, and bless my hearth and others’ with herbs and lovingly cooked meals. I wish for the manifestation of my home to be as temple, for my life to be joyful and contemplative at the same time. I wish for the spaces in my day to be filled with poetry, Nature, magick, Deities, music, yoga, meditation, love, nourishment, and both study and practice. Peaceful ecstasy and wild attunement. I know it is “in my cards;” I just need to play my hand.